Sunday, August 30, 2009

Is EGO GRATIFICATION worth the suffering???

i have pondered since forever over the question...why do we hurt the people we love the most....if they are all we care about in this world ..where do we gather the devilness to hurt them, ignore them ,hate them for what they did or did not do, why dont we jus let go off things and take them as they are, why we expect them to change...the moment we feel they are the most special ones for us....why cant we just accept them as they are....why does their not calling us during work effects us so bad.....why we wanna hate them if they cant make it on the weekend...why it matters so much if they forget the monthly anniversary.....i wonder if we really love them or just live in an illusion of loving them.....or rather do we love ourselves and merely wanna see aur reflections in them....i cribb i cry i want to die wen i dnt know how long i'll have to live withis why......if i try some non expectations theory i successfully fail....coz if i cnt feel the sourness the sweetness too is gone....n then living a bland life is no fun....i know m babbling but thats all i do...if u have any thoughts do gimme a review.....but again the question remains in place is ego worth the pain?????